Healing

Let’s talk about break ups real quick. Yes they suck, yes they hurt, but what people don’t talk about is the healing part. Spoiler, Bryan and I broke up.

I absolutely loved my relationship, our relationship. I had so much fun, so many amazing experiences, incredible adventures, and learned more about myself in 4 years than I ever had before. It’s only inevitable when you live with a teacher. I lived with a boyfriend for the first time and had an absolute blast.

I’m now going through the breakup aftermath, processing the fact that my significant other didn’t think I was the one. I looked at my situation and decided I could either see it one of two ways; I could come at it from a place of resentment and anger and hurt, or I could come from a mindful place of forgiveness and respect, honoring the amazing 4 years we spent together. Despite it not being my decision, I had to mindfully decide to move forward to heal myself.

I’m on a new journey, one in which I need to create new boundaries for myself. Having never lived alone before, this is another first. I’ve always known who I was and what I want in a partner and in life(not career unfortunately!!), so I’m in no way needing to “find” myself, but I am looking to grow daily, by myself. Aware of how I expanded my mindset through collective experiences, but now moving forward and continuing to grow alone.

 I’m in no way saying this break up has been easy for me, and to say just because I’m a confident person that I am left unaffected. I am hurt, sad for what could’ve been, what I thought would’ve been, but setting aside my ego and accepting what has come to pass to move forward positively and efficiently. I’m sitting with my feelings and accepting them as my own, and allowing them to pass. I can’t explain how to be so positive and aware, the only other way I can describe it is being so fully adaptable, in every situation and every experience. Through my adaptatbility I’m able to not take things too hard or seriously, and to willingly and truthfully accept things as they come. Maybe Bryan and I were supposed to move to Manhattan Beach to create a life over here for me.

Everything logistical has fallen into place so easily for me in the last month and I feel more in alignment with the universe than ever before. Maybe everything really does happen for a reason, you just have to find that reason out for yourself. Just speaking my truth and excited for my future.

Universe, give me everything you got, I can handle it all! ✨💯

I’m surprisingly so happy with the uncertainty of my life right now, I see it as a world of endless opportunities. Now it’s up to me to navigate it and pursue my dreams. After releasing control of my recent experiences, I’m feeling in alignment with the universe so much that I’m thrilled with the opportunities life has given me.

I was so fearful of change a few months ago. Now I see how much life has exceeded my expectations, and I’m SO excited to thrive in the uncertainty of this amazing life.

When you accept the things you cannot change and allow things to happen organically, you align yourself with the universe allowing for things to happen so fluidly and easily. I grew and learned from the pain and hurt. I allowed myself to feel them, as to not block any lessons or abundance. I claimed the experience I wanted to manifest through my reality. I had faith knowing I would end up happy, but I never knew how fulfilled and in flow with what I wanted until it happened.

 Looking back I’m so incredibly happy to have just accepted the things that happened to me, and moved forward positively and faithfully. Primarily believing in myself, and of course, having an amazing support system to help along the way. I feel so humbled and blessed by the chain of events that happened this year. Despite my financial and emotional losses, I decided to believe in myself, and I can’t be more ecstatic with where my life is going. I gave myself all the energy I needed to heal and rise above adversity. I’m sooo excited for life and I know everything will turn out as it should.

You and your mind are more powerful than you think!✨💗